Spring is in the air…
And after nearly two years of parental leave, I’m back at work. It’s a weird feeling, coming back to the colleagues (who haven’t changed) and tasks (which are still something we need to do REALLY SOON!). Old problems resurface and I find myself struggling to defend myself against the negativity going around in these halls. There has been a change in the top management and hence there is a lot of insecurity and anger going around. It’s so easy to fall back into old ways and routines, especially since these work-related themes are the one thing I can connect with my colleagues about. But the longer I’m back, the more I realize that I’m really through with these feelings. I don’t want them anymore.
Totally time for a little update – especially since February decided today that spring has been called off for at least one snowy day – and some pictures of a wonderful sunny day.
These days, I’m…
“Oh, how cute! Are they twins?” – “No, they’re a beagle and a crate of beer.”
No, that’s not an actual conversation, but sometimes I wish I had the guts to say that. Honestly, that’s the most-heared question twin parents get. But at the same time, the question is always asked with such a joy and a smile that it’s hard to be sarcastic in the face of a stranger. People love twins! Really, they do! And they always have a story about twins themselves or just a comment.
We have our own little “circle” here, even though probably most more organized Wiccans would smile about our lack of professionality or even continuity. It’s by far not every ritual we celebrate together, we don’t even have a fire for a lot of them and also a lot of them cannot happen outside because of cold and weather. We have no “Priestess” and no male participants, we barely have a certain process or defined order in which stuff happens in our rituals. Most of the time we’re only three or four women, meeting, celebrating and focussing our energy and thoughts.
That used to be different for quite a while. But life is what it is, so some have moved on, meet with other people or just can’t find the time any longer.
With Lughnasad up ahead and the boys turning one, the question of how to build traditions, what traditions and how to celebrate which holidays gets ever closer to my heart. Neither Leander nor I celebrate Christian festivals and while I found a spiritual home in paganism with a big touch of Wicca, he is not so settled in any religious or spiritual frame, despite being a very spiritual person. So it’s not only that we celebrate different days and fests than all of our family and most of our friends, it’s also that we celebrate them differently. Plus, we both don’t believe in forcing a spiritual or religious view on children and would rather they find their own way. That does however not cancel out celebrating certain occasions.